Brrrr....

God it's cold out! I was really hoping school would've been delayed today, but nooooo.

It really should've been. I nearly busted my ass on my walkway this morning.
Did I mention it's cold?
Unless we move to a warmer climate- I'm gonna be one of those old ladies you see wearing a sweater, hat, gloves, and scarf indoors while shivering over a space heater,lol...Lets hope it doesn't come to that;o)

So I'm trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up, I mean- When my kids grow up! I loved working with mentally disabled people, there's so much they can contribute to this world if people would only give them a chance. It was an awesome feeling to be able to teach them skills that are needed to work,socialize, and just live. I'd still be doing it, but as much as I loved that particular job, it just didn't pay. That was also when gas shot up to $4.25 a gallon and I was driving a hundred miles a week to work. Savannah was in daycare and I was literally broke. I was apprehensive about driving a school bus but it was the only place that was hiring- and it was close to home. And in spite of the crude jokes (Like do I scratch my balls, smoke cigars, and how many tattoos,blah,blah,blah), it's not bad. Sometimes I even enjoy it. My middle school kids are awesome.

Writing and photography has always been something I love to do. I adore interior decorating and painting, anyone who's been to my house will tell you. I even loved working at Stop & Shop...Seriously, my manager, co-workers and customers were all like family. Hell, I even had the security guard wrapped around my finger. Damn he was hot......Anyway (hey I'm married, not dead!) I just want to love what I do. If I'm willing to spend thousands in school loans then I want to make it worthwhile.

God here I am at 30 trying to figure it out. I just never could.
When I was a kid I wanted to be a doctor/nurse, or a rockstar,lol...
What am I meant to do? Being a mother and watching my girls grow and feeling that pride only a parent can feel has been the greatest gift. How do you top that? Savannah's only 5 but I feel like I should start focusing on.....something. For me. I give my girls, my husband, my house, my work 110%. I'm now realizing I don't give myself even half of that (Surely, I'm one of many who say the same damn thing).
No wonder women are such bitches,lol...................